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SEEKING HELP!!!

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Trigger Warning- Content in this post contains information and discussions about mental illness, mental health crisis, domestic violence and suicide which some readers might find triggering.     Hello amazing humans out there!!! How are you all doing??? We as a country is going through a second wave of COVID-19 and it seems to be worse than the 1st time. In order to fight it, don't forget to social distance, wash your hands, wear a mask and stay hydrated ! We all like to feel loved, acknowledged, heard and belonged to. In life there can also be situations where you feel estranged even when you're not. This is something that I've been struggling with lately. I often feel like I don't belong to my family, my ideas and thoughts are far from theirs, I don't get along with my friends and simply I feel that I don't fit anywhere. This is a very hard topic for me to talk about. I'm sure not only for me, for most of us its a hard one to talk about. Personally I

FEAR AND DREAMS!!!!

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 Hello amazing human beings out there??? How have you been? It’s been so long since we’ve been in contact! I don't know whether I'm not comfortable saying this, but I've tried writing this post quite few times this last couple of weeks. I came across this saying which says, " WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WEREN'T AFRAID? " and I could not get that thing off my head. I have so many things that I would like to do in this life; the only thing that keep me from doing those is the fear inside of me. Then I thought, what am I really afraid of? Its the feeling of been failed that I'm afraid of. I have failed so many times in my life and I'm afraid to fail anymore. Is that fear worth of not doing things that I really wanna do? If you told me, last year that I'll be writing this blog now, I probably wouldn't have believed you. I'm very shy as a person when it comes to things like public speaking, showing off my talents and things like that.(now my close

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED!!

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Hello amazing human beings out there!! How are you all doing? Have you ever been in a situation where you have dreamt about something all your life and when it finally come true, you felt disappointed as its not what you expected it to be? 4years ago when I went abroad for my studies that's how I felt. All my life, since I was a little girl, I wanted to go abroad for my higher studies and may be settle in later on. Its not because I don't love my country or anything but all those movies and TV shows I watched as a kid made me think its going to be amazing.When I finally got the chance to do it, I didn't like that at all. I thought I was prepared for it as that's what I wanted all my life.But Oh Boy! How wrong and immature was I to even think like that. You never know how it is until you experience it yourself. I used to fantasize how its going to be living abroad, all by my self, in a perfect dorm room or an apartment, doing my laundry, cooking whatever I want and ea

TODAY IS A GIFT!!!

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  Hello amazing humans out there!! How are you all doing? As much as I love to write more often, sometimes I get carried away with life. With everything getting back to our new normal, I might not be able to write more often, but I would like to thank each and everyone who has stuck with me since the very beginning and the support you've given me. Last few months as I had some extra time with me, I got a chance to think about many things in life, which I never had the time to do before. One thing I realized is that I tempt to live in the past rather than in the moment. Okay let me explain. I find my self stuck in past memories more often than enjoying what I have now. For an example, I think about great conversations I had with my Mother, when I could have more conversations with my Father while I still can. I don't know who else is feeling like that, but I think I'm not alone in this. As much as its good to think about those memories and sometimes re-live in those, its ver

LOVE YOURSELF!!!

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 Hello amazing human beings out there!!!!! How are you all doing? As all of you are slowly getting back to a new normal you found, I hope you are still finding enough time for yourselves. This is going to be a different post. This isn't something that I was going to write today but as I was preparing meals for my family, I felt so strong about this. I'm sure most of you, who are reading these posts of  mine don't know who I am or what I'm like. Don't worry I'm not gonna write a whole post about me or how I am now, but this will be about me.Do you get what I am saying? I hope I'm not confusing you already. Okay let's cut the chase and get back to what I'm gonna talk about today. Almost all my life, I have been telling my self so many things which aren't very positive or nice. I always put my self down and victimize my self. I often told my self that I'm not good enough , I'm not beautiful;I'm ugly , I'm not loved , I'

Why I chose a medical career?

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Hello amazing human beings out there! How are you all doing? Its been quite sometime since I connected with you all. This is harder than I thought. At the beginning new ideas were flooding into my head, but oh boy, it's hard keep writing even though I love doing this. As one of our final assignments for this semester, one of our teachers asked us to write a report. One of the topics were "why choose a medical career?" As I was researching for that, I was stuck with the question "why I chose a medical career?" This is a question I often ask myself. In many South Asian countries, many parents wish their kid to be a doctor, an engineer or a lawyer. With that influence, I too wished to be a doctor when I was just a small kid. But growing up my dream job kept changing from time to time. I wanted to be an author, TV presenter, radio presenter, dancer, actress, astronaut, scientist, chemist, teacher and also a historian. I'm sure list is much longer but these are t

A DAY WITH MY MOTHER!!!

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Hello my fellow amazing human beings out there!! How are you all doing? I hope you all are doing your best you can! What day is it tomorrow? It's Mothers' Day! One of my favourite days of the year. I've been thinking about it for the past week. Ever since I lost my mother 2 years ago, I didn't know what to do on that day or what to look forward to, but this year I didn't want it to be like that.  After thinking a lot about it, I've decided this year I'm gonna write a letter to her telling about what I wanna do if I get to have her for another day. So here it is guys. First of all I would bring her a cup of tea to her bed early in the morning as soon as she wakes up. I would then prepare her all time favourite breakfast.It's called "milk rice", where you cook rice with coconut milk and salt.(My parents love it but me and me brother hate it, but because it's all about my  mother I will make it and may be eat it too.) Then we'll

How It All Began!!

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Hello amazing people out there!! How are you all doing?  Do you have any special things that you loved doing this hard time? Something that kept you occupied? Something that you've always wanted to do but didn't have time to do it all this time and you've finally able to do it with this extra time you have? For me it is baking. I've always wanted to learn how to bake but couldn't do it until few weeks ago. And I should say I love it. It has kept me occupied for few hours a week and my favourite part is seeing my brother's and father's faces while they devour it down. What I love more than baking is, cooking. I LOVE COOKING! If you know me you know, how much I love cooking. I love finding new recipes, trying new food, experimenting with ingredients and basically I love anything to do with cooking.Even though I love new recipes, I don't like following them.I like getting the general idea of how its done, and do my own thing. Fun fact is I USED TO

Unspoken Words!!

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Hello amazing human beings out there!!! How are you all doing? How is everything going on with adjusting to this new normal we're all in? I want to be real with you all. Some days are HARD, I mean HARDER than other days. But on a positive note, we're all in this together and we'll get through this with the grace of the Almighty! What I want to talk about today is " THE IMPORTANCE OF COMMUNICATION IN A RELATIONSHIP." Some incidents that took place in my life in the recent past has gotten me in to thinking what role does communication plays in our lives. For some, it might not make any sense, but more I think about it more I understand is that almost all of our relationships depend on that. I'm not saying that it isn't the only fact that relationships depend on, but it is very important. Have you ever been on a situation where you got irritated with someone, for no particular reason? If so have you taken some time to think what the reason could be fo

Love Like No Other!!

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Hello there amazing human beings!! How are you all doing today? This weekend is very special for Christians. We commemorate the crucifixion and resurrection of Christ Jesus. I have a small question for you all. What's the best thing that one has done for you out of love or something you've done for someone else out of love? I'm sure we all have done extraordinary things. But can any of those be compared to what Jesus did for us on that cross.   "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." 1 John 4:10 (NIV) God sent his ONE AND ONLY SON, JESUS CHRIST into this world as a human. Jesus lived as an ordinary person for 33 years on this earth before he was crucified on that cross. HE died for you and me. To save you and me from sin. Who would sacrifice their life for someone they love. Anyone can say that they would, but in reality will they do? He died on that cross but death couldn'

Let's Talk Sports!!

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Hello amazing human beings out there!!! How are you all doing? What are you all doing to stay positive during this hard time? Before anything else I just want to clarify one thing. I'm no sporty person at all, but love sports. So I'm gonna take you all on a small ride through "Sports Life" of mine.  Earliest memory I have of me playing a sport is when I was about 5-6years old. I loved playing cricket with my brother who was 4-5years old at that time. Even at a very young age, he was very good at it. Then about 2 years later, when I was 8 years or so, we were asked to join a sport in school. Considering my weight and health, my parents decided it's better if I joined badminton. So after 2 or 3 practice sessions, one day our coach was teaching us how to master the grip. Me being my very " non-sporty self ," I couldn't get hold of anything he taught that day. My coach got very cross with me and bent my forefinger in the opposite direction. H

Actions and words have its conequences!!!!!

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Hello there amazing human beings!!      How are you all doing today?  It's Palm Sunday today, Sunday before Jesus's crucifixion, and Holy Week begins from today. I started a new post on Palm Sunday but decided to write this after a conversation I had with my father. potato rice with deviled chicken  I'll tell you a little background story before I get into the fact I wanna talk about today. I'm coming from an Asian country,(will do a descriptive post about myself in the future) where girls don't have much of a saying in things. Growing up this was never a problem for me. I thought and was taught that its the way things are done, but as I grew older I knew that it isn't how things are done. I learnt that every person has a right to speak and speak for themselves.     As I recall, my father used to complain about my mother's food all the time. No matter what my mother made, he always had something to say about it. I found this very disturbing, but c

A New season In Life!!!

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Hello amazing humans out there! This has been a dream of mine since I was a very little girl. Writing has always been a great passion of mine. I think writing is my way of expressing my emotions and feelings. As a very shy person in nature, I find it really hard to put my feelings into words when I'm speaking. So here I am trying my best, to put my thoughts into words in the best possible way I know. Random beautiful flowers found near Streets in Chengdu,China I'm just an ordinary person living my life in the best possible way, enjoying every bit of it. As this is my very first post I hope you all would be kind to me and give me an opportunity to be myself and express my self freely. I'm no author, celebrity or a person with great talents. I'm a medical student living in a foreign country, learning how to balance my studies along with doing everything by myself to live the best life possible. Of course anything isn't possible if my God isn't there with m