MESSY THOUGHTS!!!!

 Hello amazing humans out there!!!

Happy 2021 to you all!!! 

Isn't it just amazing how GOD make things work in your life? When you're struggling, you don't see any light and you feel that you're constantly kept in the dark. Looking back at last 5 years of my life, I often felt like I've been through so much, that I'm actually done for quite some time. As much as those seem like a lot at times, I'm grateful for each and every little incident that happened; which shaped me into who I am today. I strongly believe,my Heavenly Father carried me through mountain high and valley low. When everything around me was falling apart, he held me high and tight, closer to his heart. My point of view has changed in countless ways,in ways I didn't even knew that could be changed. Through initial years of my uni life, I was sure and was swearing by every mean that going abroad and going to that specific place was one of the biggest mistakes I did with my life. I had the perfect opportunity to attend a local university and do something else other than medicine but I decided to go abroad to accomplish a dream that my parents had for me but not something I wanted. Do I regret making that decision? I don't know about that but now I've come to the realization that it has been one of the greatest blessings that has ever happened to me. I say its one of the best things to happen in my life but I often feel like I'm not doing what I'm really supposed to be doing with my life. May be I'm stressed with the heavy workload! 

Am I insane to be blabbering like this? I don't have an answer for that either. Life is very confusing at this point. Jotting down my thoughts just as they flow has helped me a ton. I don't believe any coincidences but only GOD-incidences. As much as I feel like I'm in a place where I'm not supposed to be, I strongly believe that it was HIM who took me this far. I know how confusing it is. I'm confused too! Whether its choosing a medical career or starting this blog last year, I know it was all him. If I take this blog for an instance, I started this to help others who are struggling, to help them feel relatable and let them know that they aren't alone but when I look back at it now, it was actually for me. I benefited a lot more from this than I ever imagined. If someone told me this truth one year ago, I would've probably laughed at that person thinking it as a big fat joke. I still don't know what God has planned for me in the future. One thing I know is that, what ever HE has planned for me is the best thing that I could ever have. There will be hiccups on the way, but I'm determined to trust in HIS plans through it all!

This post isn't any regular post nor any amazing, unique one you'll like to read which is perfectly structured and beautifully written. It consists of some random thoughts that came to my mind after a conversation I had with a very dear friend of mine, while I was taking a break from studying for my neurology exam which I'll have to do in just less than 48hrs. Honestly I enjoy writing these random, vague, messy posts. This might not get any views but this is WHO I AM, and I'M NOT SORRY FOR THAT. If I must say, this was for me more than it was for anyone else. If there's at least one person out there who can relate to any of these that I mentioned here and know that they aren't alone, then I'll be happy.

BE SAFE EVERYONE!

BE HAPPY!!

BE YOU AND DON'T BE SORRY ABOUT IT!!!

LET GO AND LET GOD!!!!

LOVE YOURSELF!!!!!

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

THANK YOU!!!


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