Hello amazing humans out there!!
How are you all doing? I've been struggling a bit lately until I heard this Arab proverb. If you wanna know about it, then keep reading!😉
I was watching a movie the other day and I came across this proverb. It didn't mean much at the time but after a conversation I had today, it meant something. It was like a new hope to me. Its like a new direction for me to look into.
As some of you may know, I'm a medical student. More like an intern now. I know. I'm surprised too! What you might not know is, I've been doing my medical degree online since the outbreak of the pandemic. Which means, my medical internship is done online too. The country I was doing my degree in, didn't allow their international students back to their country to resume their degrees, thus we are stuck in our own countries trying to figure out how to finish these degrees and find jobs afterward. This whole situation lead me into a darker place, mentally. Every passing day was a struggle. Most days, I didn't realize how the day went by. I spent most of my days laying in my bed staring at the ceiling or just burring myself in ton of movies and shows. Loneliness started taking over every aspect of my life. I didn't want to meet people at all. I know that I'm not the only one who went through it all. I know so many others went through much harder things than I did. It affected all of us globally.
Where am I going with this? And what does that mysterious Arab proverb has to do with any of this? Probably it has nothing to do with this. May be I was just finding an excuse to rant out. However, I have something else to say other than all these messy thoughts.
Going back to my degree for a bit, I have a confession to make. Most people I know, or anyone at all in general, people have any kind of a plan for their life. May be life doesn't always go according to a plan, but any organized/successful human have some sort of a plan for their life/ carrier, right? Would you believe if I say I had "0" plans when I entered med school? When everyone around me shared what they wanna do after finishing med school, I was like "I dunno. We'll see how it goes....." Here I am almost out of med school, still figuring out what I wanna do. What I do know is, I wanna get out of here; I wanna get out of this dark place I'm in right now, I wanna get out of this place and go work somewhere else. What I dunno is, where I wanna go, when and how? Okay, that's a little bit of an exaggeration. I kinda know how, even though I'm not completely aware of how to make it into a possibility. I guess that's the beauty of life! Sometimes, somethings are uncertain in life, but you still keep going huh? And I believe that the HEAVENLY FATHER I believe in will take me there!
Phew! This was hard. When I started writing this, I thought I knew what I was gonna write about and how its gonna go. Oh boy! Like I said earlier, it won't always go according to the plan. Sometime you gotta be spontaneous and let it flow and see what happens next.
Okay, its time for me to reroute my self and get back to what I wanted to say initially. What I wanted to say was, I'm gonna redirect myself. I'm gonna put my heart ahead and start chasing it around. Not gonna worry myself too much. Maybe chasing my heart will lead into unexpected adventures, but I'm all up for it.
Hope this wasn't that confusing to read.😌
Before I forget,
THROW YOUR HEART OUT IN FRONT OF YOU & RUN AHEAD TO CATCH IT!
Hope you all have a great rest of the week!
CHASE YOUR HEART!!